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I felt really ashamed to shoot with someone talented like clandestine-wishes, when I looked and felt so ugly. Like I was wasting her time with my hideousness. This photo and her comments have made me feel... I can't explain. But I just wanted to say thanks.

Yes I'm not a size 8 anymore. Yes, I decided to stop barfing and doing drugs and start eating. I started taking care of myself and decided I wanted to have a real future. I'm more beautiful and healthy now at size 12-14(au) I ever was as a size 6-8. I can get up every day and have energy. I have a real job. My organs are recovering from all the nasty things Ii did to them because I wanted to be pretty. I have a loving boyfriend who thinks I'm beautiful even though I'm not stick thin, and even when I wear frumpy trackies and eat strait from the wok or spill things on myself.

This may have made me 'fat' but I don't want to apologize any more, and I won't.

I love this picture. I love it. Please, go and +fav it. (I wont force you but hey )